fragilekeys

I am curious how you see things.

I could say that writing is often like manning the shutter valve on a high-pressure pipe. There never seems to be an end to the water that might gush out of it once it’s opened, but the ground outside only needs to be watered so much. I don’t know the exact amount, and so wait anxiously to discover when to shut the lock. But somehow (I can’t figure how it works) there is always the exact amount of water anyway, no matter what I “do.” In this somewhat pointless game, waged against myself, the trick is to turn the valve off right after the last drop drips out. Of course, the ground has been watered appropriately either way; but if you time it just right, you can almost succeed in convincing yourself you had something to do with it. This is the fragile moment of realization and consciousness: “I am doing this.” If you miss the mark, the whole thing looks like one big accident, one big beautiful accident. And after the water’s soaked in for a while, this always seems to be the unavoidable conclusion. I can’t expect it, but predict this to be true: the well will fill up again, I will irrigate another land. But still the sensation of being a part of it too often seems too feigned — a ruse of time, some game I played with myself to pretend I was involved. And yet somehow, the whole acreage went by my name. Continue reading →

John from Australia has asked me, quite unexpectedly, what I might say in response to Adi Da Samraj and His Divine Transmission. What a splendid oppurtunity! I am not sure if he meant this as a challenge to what I’ve set up elsewhere, or if he, more innocently, was simply curious how His Transmission might fit in to my Nontology. You can read my initial response in the comment section of the previous post, which is more personal (I mean narrative and historical) than this post will be. The purpose of this post is to introduce Adi Da while venturing an “interpretation” of his work along the way; and then to zoom out and add my own “spin” to all this, to open up some new avenues of inquiries. Again, what praise to chance that John would make his inquiry! It is as if Adi Da Himself had intervened… Continue reading →