In the Shadows of Resentment

One thing needs to be understood about Friedrich Nietzsche once and for all: this doctor of all things resentment was, at bottom, one of the most resentful philosophers to ever have existed. Surely, he taught “love of fate,” the doctrine that no matter what happens to you, no matter what trauma or pain you undergo, you should embrace it, affirm it―indeed that you should will it again. And not just once! You should, because you shall whether you like it or not, will it for all eternity: this is the doctrine of his Eternal Return of the Same, the “terrible” thought which is meant to make all men tremble. To not bend under its weight, one must never resent one’s fate, for it is what has happened to you. Ethics in this case means: “become worthy of what happens to you” (Deleuze). Fine. But this jealous guarding of one’s own beloved fate takes shelter from its own insecurity by―at least sometimes, but the trend is unmistakeable―resenting the fate of others, above whom the philosopher tries to elevate himself at every turn: to become a “free spirit,” a “free man” over and against all those other lightweights, boneheads and jackasses who do not know that they are slaves; he even resents their fate for them, for their sake, as if one thought them pitiful and took pity on them through admonishment.

The love that Nietzsche preaches thus implies a necessary prerequisite, which is not only a prerequisite but also suffuses the doctrine and is inseparable from its results, namely: you shall despise. You shall despise whatever is “not you”, meaning whatever does not participate in your becoming, in your desire, in your love. You shall filter constantly what does not fit the profile of your eternal self. But, for Nietzsche, it is not enough to reject it quitely. On the contrary, he fills thousands of pages with a hate that is only given the shine of happiness because he lights them up with his own purported extraordinariness and ability to “overcome.” Of course, part of his ambition is to convince you of your own extraordinariness, of your own eternally-returning self-in-becoming, your own power to will who you uniquely are and not get lost in the trappings of what today we would call neo-liberal, democratic, consumer-based society. But to do so, he must disparage, in the name of “calling out.” All possibilities that are incompatible with becoming, all the other selves in himself, all those whose ways of life he deems inferior, he must reject scold and discredit―as if he had to burn them off, to weaken the temptation they presented for him, or even to forget the extent to which he himself was at one time complicit in them. One wonders if he did not simply resent, through a kind of unconscious obsession, the idea that anyone “ordinary” could have any kind of happiness, let alone eternal happiness, if they did not seek the kind of triumph he sought.

For Nietzsche, then, Bejahung must constantly pass through Verwerfung, his yes-saying through a violent explusion of what is not-him, what is not acceptable for his fragmented and chaotic body/image. It is an endless selection saying: I am not this, I am not that, I am only becoming who I am, and no one can compare to that; and I alone will not be dumb enough to define myself according to any idea or form of life already in circulation or corrupted by the common concourse of the “slaves.”

What is comic here, to put it crudely, is the fact that in the last instance Nietzsche is really not that much better than any other resentful dude who thinks he’s amazing and everyone else is crap. The one difference is that he filled reams upon reams of writing justifying resentment, rejection, condemnation, and every other strategy of belittling ‘others’, as a strategy for transformation (becoming, enlightenment, individuation, whatever you like, here it is not a question of splitting hairs conceptually). This is the assumption of a self-singularizing difference-from-the-crowd that galvanizes so many thinkers who follow after him―not just in thought and ethics, but also in style. They condemn what they assume is the other’s self-resentment, because obviously “they” are too lost in their petty notions, their concern with everyday concerns, swallowed up in “inauthenticity” [Uneigentlichkeit]. All they do is pick at their wounds and never give a moment’s thought to death; whereas I, says the philosopher, have reckoned with it, I have owned up to this most extreme possibility, which is why I stand out and why people should listen to me. For in reckoning with my own death, and talking about it, I draw others to do the same, and doing so inevitably makes them think about their own possibility for being and action in their limited time on this earth, and thus I participate in their development in a way that the average person never does―for with my words I present them with the terrible idea that everything they ever did will return eternally, exactly as they lived it.

Yes, perhaps this alone is what separates such philosophers from the ordinary arrogant man: they have put their trials on display and, in doing so, launched a call to all humanity to wake up from their slumber, to emerge from their wishy-washy attitude regarding how they spend their time, to challenge themselves each day with more daring or outlandish tasks, indeed, to carry human experience to the very limits of the possible. Nothing at all is wrong with that per se. But it must be possible to liberate such a discourse, such a “calling out,” from its own resentment of others, from all the caricatured images it must create of other people’s happiness in order to then shoot it down and command it to revolt and change. At least, it must be questioned if such talk is a necessary step or if it is not in the end more detrimental than helpful. For one suspects that, to an certain extent, this entire strategy is only meant to keep these “rare experiences” rare, to keep “becoming” for a reserve crowd of elitist, to shun those who aren’t “up to it” by burning them and testing them and―finally, as if this were a rite of initiation―provoking them to start resenting “average people” too.

My own experience has taught me that these sorts of writing, filled with resentment however inspiring they may try to be (and I know this mode well; see Evil Compassion, a long string of “captious injunctions”), are in the end little more than attempts to recover from one’s own self-resentment, or more simply, from one’s own feeling of being stuck in a situation that one resents and wants desperately to remedy. That is why such texts are “justified” in a different sense: as strategies to escape one’s own self-enclosed mindset, to gain some distance from the “crowd” and thus win back some of one’s own freedom for acting; and that also is the use that such writings can be put to by others who are lucky or unlucky enough to read them. It is only the pretension to say anything real or intelligent about actual other people that is the illusion and should be abandoned―and which the philosopher himself probably only barely believes, since in the end he is not addressing the caricature, but the actual other people―along with the idea that by being so disparaging one has elevated oneself into a select group of those who are “freer.” The only way resentment of this sort becomes useful is if it confesses that it itself is caught in a circle, that the threat it lodges at others is actually launched at no one in particular unless at the one who launches it, thus proving that no one has any cause for resentment whatsoever― unless it is, perhaps, as a purely practical and corrective measure, sometimes helpful to resent oneself.

―May 17, 2017

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Just Reading

Every authentic form of thought contains at its core an undeconstructible point. For Derrida, this is the point where it attains or yearns for justice, or where it dwells in contact with an opening to the other that no single utterance could represent or contain.

Everything that swirls around that point in terms of dualities and networks of signification that can be deconstructed, words whose meanings can be debated and multiplied, metaphysical biases that can be diagnosed, good or bad readings of the tradition, etc.–all of that is extrinsic. Helpful to a degree, these considerations risk degrading a reading into a scholarly exercise, willfully overlooking the key point. It goes so far as to deny even the existence of such a point, whereupon the worth of the work is easily dissolved into a simulacra.

At the same time, to approach or grasp the undeconstructible, one has to pass through the deconstructible—words and their arrangements, concepts and their heritages, rhetorical strategies, references, in sum the entire level of the text which is subject to technique, repetition, reproduction, common language and convention, etc. One passes through all this earnestly, trustingly, in order to experience what cannot be reduced in it, what is singular and cannot be decomposed into these elements, in other words, what is undeconstructible and escapes knowing and objectivity. The temptation is to get stuck on one of the decomposed elements and to use it as the lens through which to judge the work as a whole; this inevitably induces a myopia that prides itself on being all-seeing. But the undeconstructible inhibits such judgments, and whoever has a nose for it will hold back from making them.

Obviously, it is much easier to comment based on decomposed elements, from partial or outside perspectives which want to know nothing about the undeconstructible and thus justify without trouble a global judgment on the whole, foreclosing its otherness, its resistance, its excess. A commentary that does the opposite—which keys in on the one key thing that cannot be located or indicated and that in some sense lies underneath all deconstructible elements—such a commentary is immediately thrust into the imperative of justice itself. It is tasked not with exposing an author’s shortcomings but with preserving the singularity of their thought. That alone communicates the hope they had and struggled to encode through a thousand compromising repetitions. It is respect.

Accessing this point and getting a feel for its singularity means going a very long road with an author, slowly digesting this one point by meticulously comprehending and experimenting with the apparatus they construct to conduct the undeconstructible, gradually discarding any impression of strictness or limitation in the deconstructible structures they present. The longer that path, the more enjoyable. The greater the breadth it grants to experimentation, the more it gives to think. For the more it leads us to our own singularities, the more just it will be.

But to get there, one must credit the author with having a genuine concern for all this, since without that trust the key point won’t be found or even allowed to appear. It depends on the reader to see underneath, to slip into the structures that can only undo themselves and disappear for the sake of being thought. A work is the presentation of its thinking of this point, which cannot be said to exist, and yet guides the entire construction, point by point. Reading follows the trail, faithfully, but only to get lost in what, for reasons of justice, must remain unpresented.

―August 2, 2017

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ASPERITIES (poems)

ASPERITIES
poems by Timothy Lavenz
2015-16

Langscabs
true to continue paining
confer on the conference-
less earthface
beings—

Mortals made Woundling
immortal in the Wordobey
wound up with reraise
in the others’ mortal
fullest space.

(Excavate, behind,
into the murmuring deceit,
recover the pearl’s keepsake,
make it thought-
treat in your treasure chart,
leave.)

Unburied, a surface
tension breathes, eyebrows
bend and speak – seeing out
into each creak:

Songswept millstone
hung to the ghost’s raving nape
seeking longingly for memory
as the treetop bird
cries safe.

*

Compress of ahead
chills the power of shackle,
contact-fissure grapples
with oblivion reactor,
forms burst forth with matrixial
voraciousness as care
cleaves to the post register,
dashed-by destiny pasture
rebloomed:

Etched in the lightache,
trembling, waiting trembling
for speed. The mind chases
shadow’s brittle battle,
forcehogs grunt and spleen,
coolants feed the dry vents
into fleshhot eye crevices
weeping prostrate repeating
craves for the unreadable.

Conclusion consents,
unstably; the agent clambers
silent from the wagered defeat;
but the bed spreads and the
seeds wet, drown into
resurrectables, found out now
in press retreat.

*

Frigid time’s gilded gale winds
whip up light in quick sediments,
in this dungeonous letterbit cave
lavished with stolid stirrings.

Belted, ripped, flung, shot:
grains flash-attack, linings give yield,
scrapes of unnatural beatings peal
as disharmonious ticklings set congeal
into starcrushed soulshapes slow-glittering;
bubbled-hollows reverberate kiddingly;
colorings clump and interweave in
abstract close range quantafigurines –
an eternal numeral, upstanding, log-rational,
love-graphic of the turtled skeleton.

A madhorn insignia escapes there –
forehead force gashed into the lately
reunified code-capitulation
until the unstained granite bliss out
and composite stroke eyes brightly see.

(Every steed comes whinnying
to an execution held hell deep
in wombfolds nurturing echo’s eek:
harness snap, unclasp, bail, repeat
into psychic glue outpouring
unbelievable: tongue, lick, greet.)

So pass the vial of that demented elixir
till rat gains entrance to the stone,
till it grasp the nebula in rotting torso –
humble portal in clay organ invisible
of demon-blessed, aged, porous
sudden airless taste vision
where lay down warm lips in dead gold.

*

No sentient remainder in the peat, tulips
despite the wipeout sprout craniums
fervent to wander thru the sprung leak –
drowsy outing to the unfathomable cling
of sleep’s whole silver possibility.

Humanless was that splendid offering:
pinecone, coast, and dropping heat.
I surveyed the dawn’s benevolent creep,
the honey-orange spirts and mockingjay peeps,
with a meal of torqued words snagged
from the mute chalice of the charred hands
eager to drink in the mixed relief,
tomorrow’s grief-delivered people
clarified to perfection by extinction assumed
and the hard-won gallop of final innocence:

Unglorious, ungodly, divine release;
Medusa’s blithe gift: free feet.

*

NATIVITY

An ox to manage the cradle
through the wasteland, with dry lips,
cracked hooves, and an anvil
to mark the pacing,
roughs it through the biting sand’s
indifferent heap.

A burnt catalog keeps the grainy trace
of every leg: those met archangels or
frowning faces, oceans or severed
toes – shipwrecks of belief (if you
can still imagine a flag
raised for poetry):

Embroidered on the canopy of that wagon,
conveying mind-wise the covenant creep,
transporting time’s unpassable channel,
is hoping; the word snorts and
eats a growth and goes ahead.

What remains is little tug,
sad chipped red left cleat;
fortune’s cause of thought
tumbled in the damaged deep
of an embankment, the old ropes
fraying, alone stuck on repeat.

A baptism in the palace of emptiness
is expected, to forbid relief.

The mute beast
affirms the necessity, almost
peopleless, as the child
readies its heart to peek.

*

lack of axis
cracked the motor,
time the road twice murdered
by two gunning pumping
human legs –

break! shouts the ladder
fall back! sighs the lone
sing again! rises mourning
denegatived –

erases the lag in the towline
to sow secrets
secret to both our regions;
across it, mirror shavings
waiting
for a line to be seen.

whose
is anyone’s misery or
in-running ghost-
being.

*

Out of the veil
in light the barrier,
I reckon lots out
with the stars,
come out empty-handed,
insolvent;

beneath white I carve
the gawking stares
led up high to the high landing;
underground I stand preparing
for the gate to go up, but
nothing, yet

asked for patience,
large starvings,
as the black beyond rises
to speak.

*

A phlegmatic film of
friable spirit and naughty deed
over drool-wafting nothingness
is our prime world decree:

A spider’s net, prepped to catch
drift of notion and animal sneeze,
casting safe lines to unsuspected regions,
levitating in the rugged elsewhere.

(Scamper faster, knead.
The gaps and leaks
sliced so cursorily in the shield
run deeper.)

The vacuum eats the weave,
the weave feeds the vacuum,
love and scar tarry
piquant
in creation’s unequal:
the existence of poetry.

*

METAPHYSICS

Carefree chassis and access
whistle another hill due west
onward on the sacred road
promising victory in distress;
concepts offloaded, roughened,
understandings bite-sized, up-to-date;
for insight: vision is mastery
staring violet irises wild into sun tapestry
plowing down haply shimmering corridors
with flags strung mad honking and
seven plus 70 sonnets to future glory,
until the final line jolts us
from the eased pavement; the image
on the horizon tapers, emulates

Accident , where
startled the encounter actions
in the absence of met doves:
fate unsealed, beloved drive
canceled: a word generated
in fog of mysterious gentle
lifelong soul commiseration
in a ditch of lost numbers
where death awaits initiation.

*

Sky
ripping at the saw,
first perception’s
awe in the rift:

cut time
incinerate infinity image,
sun pinion on slim
revolve – a caption
standing resolve
let sunder.

O empirical crumple,
unresolvable episteme,
bracket dough being in fall;
total up to tea towel
in sludge;
disavow, become;
tell look again focus
and pull.

*

Trial myth of fire
on the explosion’s scream,
a clock that has you
alive and asleep,
rapt in contention
with the crackle’s glow.

(Gather the logs, guests
are entering,
set up more chairs
in the snow.)

Distorted the conflagration
unlags, it sparkles
in welcoming shadows,
legs out, footprints made,
announcing converge
on that damned clockface
where counting’s nothing and
elixirs goad the indemonstrable
into that oratory emplacement
of chuckling silence, standing or
sitting round the echo labor
in memory of chances
past earning.

(Friend’s intrusion
learns my inner memory;
I listen for the countdown
in our go.)

*

Imagination’s urgency
deferred into rumor purge
plans demonry.

Pronunciation of the thing
debates intangibles;
organs denaturalized
relearn lassitude;
the clasp on the ape’s back
refigures human
anima.

Perennials
pop into purposes
unnoosed. The grey
lark chooses not to move
yet falls in for the truth:
petals touching, tardily,
the wind. –

Heartily,
for the cage flutters now
and the chairs up-tip;
a channel into dark
amber begins.

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